Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. ~ Psalm 16:5-6
Is the Lord your portion? Are you content with the portion that He assigned you? These are questions that we, as believers, must ask ourselves when we are dealing with discontentment. I’m not saying this as a criticism, but as a mere observation; a first hand one in my own life, I might add. We, who have lacked nothing, as far as daily needs and even wants are concerned, can be the most discontent, unsatisfied people. We look at someone’s house and feel less satisfied with ours. We look at someone’s marriage and start sighing at the flaws in ours. We look at someone’s position and feel less important in ours.
It’s a miserable and exhausting place to be, Yet, this predicament is where we find ourselves much of the time; oftentimes, with little awareness of it. When I recognize it, I tend to push it down and apply the “suck it up” approach. Sometimes, I will ask God to take the discontentment or the desire, that is creating the discontentment, completely away. I don’t know if anyone else has tried this method, but it doesn’t seem to work for me. The “bracing for the worst”, the “sucking it up”, or the “bearing the burden” of it, only seem to create an exhaustion and a discouragement that breeds resentment and little joy.
God has really been speaking to me about the portion He has allotted to me, lately. “Can I not be enough for you?”, He asks me. When I say yes, I realize at that moment, the areas that He hasn’t filled, are the areas that He wants to fill with Himself. When I invite Him to those areas, He is always faithful to be just what I need. It never feels like anything is lacking when I am content with my assigned portion.
There is a freedom that comes with this. When I am not bound by want of whatever is beyond my present assignments, I am free to pour myself wholeheartedly into the areas that God has assigned. Remember, He is both our portion, and He assigns portions to us. So, He fills us with Him and He allots what is in our lives; be it things, people, roles, or responsibilities. When we are satisfied with Him first, we grow to be satisfied with what He has given us. Even the simplest meal or task is recognized as a gift from Heaven because He fills us first. The mundane is seen as an area of opportunity to glorify Him.
So, when you begin feeling discontent with the aspects of your life, see it as an area that God is wanting to be put first in. Maybe He is withholding things you are asking for because He is helping you put Him back into focus. He is a jealous God and even though jealousy has negative connotations to it, it is a good thing in this case. I thank God that He loves me enough to be jealous of the things that I place my heart on. He wants to hold that space and deserves nothing other than my wholehearted devotion to Him. If He didn’t love us much, He wouldn’t care, but because He does then He is jealous of the misplaced affections we have. He gets our attention often by withholding the things we are praying for. For that, I am thankful.
When He is enough for me, I already have all that I need. He withholds no good thing from us unless it is for our good and His glory. Goodness is His attribute and if we trust that He is God, then we must trust that He is good. When we look all around us, and it doesn’t look like anything desirable, we look to Him and we are steadied, stayed, and satisfied.