Scars

 

Woman enjoying majestic view on top of a hill

We have scars physically and emotionally. The scars heal on our body, some we remember what happened and some we don’t.  Some are deeper and some are shallow.  Emotional scars are similar.  Some are very deep and some aren’t.  Some we caused and some were caused by others.  We all have a story.  Here is one.

There was this girl who was sexually molested starting at age twelve by a family member, she felt guilt and shame. The scars were deep. She became a teenager and promiscuous, she drank, used drugs, trying to find the love and acceptance she desperately needed. She became pregnant and she had and an abortion.  The scars of guilt and shame grew deeper.

She married but the marriage didn’t last because she felt unloved, couldn’t trust and the secrets were a huge chasm.  She started going to church, she repented of her sins, accepted Jesus and was baptized.  Her mother got cancer, she believed with all her heart that God would heal her.  Her mom died at fifty-four years old and she was twenty-seven years old.  She felt that God didn’t love her to let her mother die. She drifted away from the church.

She married again, she had a son, and she grieved the child long ago that could have been. She loved her husband and child.  Life went on, she buried the secrets, but then the marriage started to fall apart, she wanted to die.  Then she turned to God, she gave her life to Jesus.  She told her husband we need God in the middle of our marriage.  They visited several churches and then God led them to Canvas Church.

She finally told her secrets to her husband, afraid he would repel in disgust but he said he loved her more.  She loves her husband more.  She praises God every day for forgiving her sins, and healing her wounds.

“…that He might make holy, cleansing by the washing with water through the Word” (Ephesians 5:25-26).

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
1 John 1:9 ESV

The name of the girl in the story is Suzanne, me, forgiven, a child of God, loved, and made whole, not broken anymore.  The sins of the past forgotten by God.

“He has removed our sins as far from us as the east is from the west.”
Psalms 103:12 NLT

~Suzanne

Advertisements

4 thoughts on “Scars

  1. This is the woman I love, my gift from God, strong enough to share not just her scars but her redemption as well. Thank you Father!

    1. Thank you for loving me the way I was, the way I am and who I will become in Jesus. You are a wonderful husband , great father and grand father and most of all a great man of God.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s