When we reach a certain point in our lives, we really start craving that true love and longing from a significant other. Some people are blessed with God sending them their partner almost immediately. Some people wait for what seems like an eternity, and then find their blessings. In my situation, I found what I thought was my blessing, but turned out after 9 years of marriage, life had other plans. My marriage fell apart and I thought “God, why? Why would You take away the one person who loved me for me?!?!?”
But now, months later, I find myself finally understanding something. God longs to be our first love, He loves and pursues me more than any human possibly could. I’m not saying by any means that God took my marriage away from me and a daddy away from my girls just to get my attention. It definitely taught me to lean on Him even more, rekindling our love and relationship.
I was drawn to Song of Solomon shortly after making the decision to end my marriage. It was a very hard time in my life and God reminded me of a few things about His Love for me. He reminded me that He thinks I am perfect and beautiful. He pursues me daily. He delights in me. He desires to be with me and desires my company. He says I am His and He is mine. The best thing of all, He told me His love, desire and longing for me is eternal and unconditional. I think that is just simply amazing. Someone who is so perfect, pure and loving wants to have an eternal relationship with me. He calls for me daily, wants to have intimate time daily, just me and Him.
I don’t understand or deserve any of His emotions or the love He shows me. I find delight in my first Love. I know that no matter if it is 3 months from now or 30 years from now, God will be there. He is holding me through the storms that come. He will whisper, “I am here, My love. I will never leave or forsake you, My love.” That is the most awesome feeling in the world. He constantly pursues me. I will strive to constantly pursue my Love, who will never ever leave or put any other above me. I am His number one priority and He promises to grant me the desires of my heart. I am so thankful to have a God who loves me for me and will never forsake me.
I know God has a special someone out there who is waiting for me, but I also know now, I will find him through God. And I can’t wait to see what He provides for me and my girls. 🙂
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