When It All Comes Tumbling Down

Have you ever reached a point in your life when you feel the weight of the world on your shoulders? Nothing goes right? Seems like there is someone out there that just wants to see you fail. A few series back Pastor Nick preached on struggle and how it can make you a better person by going through it.

About 2 years ago a major struggle happened to me. I was in what seemed, to those on the outside looking in, to be a fairly happy and God centered marriage. Even though I knew it wasn’t, I fooled myself into thinking so. A few developments happened in my marriage that shook me to the core as a man and as a Christian which caused me to make the decision to file for divorce.

 I was always taught that marriage was forever, so why is this happening to me? I went into a deep depression during my divorce process and doubted if God was truly real in my life. I received advice from friends and mentors but it never really seemed to sink in. While all this stress was going on, my bills began to pile up and I was in jeopardy of losing my job.  I got to a place one night in my bedroom where I was in tears and I began to yell, I was so upset and I took it out on God. I asked Him, “Why do this to me?”  What did I do to deserve to be hurt and betrayed? Then I remember asking Him,  “If you love me so show me that your real , show me what you have planned for me?”
Ladies and Gentleman be careful what you ask for……

God opened the door for a long time friend of mine, Nathan, and a relative stranger to me, Attaway, to move in my home. Having them there started to make it feel like a home. There was no more silence but happiness and bonding between three guys from three different backgrounds. God wasn’t done yet….He decided to show me that it’s never too late for love. He sent me Linsey, a Godly woman who loves and supports me.

When it all came tumbling down God was there to lift that weight off my shoulders. I am blessed, even though I didn’t see it, He was with me through the struggle. I proud to say I went through it, because if I didn’t I wouldn’t be who I am today. 

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
—2 Corinthians 12:9-10 

~Julz

Guest Post: are you thinking to yourself…”how come he gets to write for the blog?” Good question. Do you have something to share, a testimony, a reaction to a sermon at Canvas Church or a thought on how God is working in you and through you in this very moment? We want to read about it. Email me at angela@mycanvaschurch.com and I will do my best to add it into our blog.

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3 thoughts on “When It All Comes Tumbling Down

  1. Julz, I’m happy for you and the blessings that are going on in your life. Thanks for sharing. I’m proud to be your sister in Christ and your antithesis (heheh!)
    Love ya!

  2. Yes, Julz…thank you for sharing your struggle and God’s response! You are an amazingly fantastic brother, and I am ecstatic that you have Linsey in your life, soon-to-be bride!!

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